Surface Area

In which I evaluate myself, talk about things that could’ve been.

I’ve had my fair share of detractors. None with a face, though. Except maybe broken-pen but that was more of a critical review.

But I don’t think I’ve ever had anyone with a face actually yell at me for being a shitty writer, a shitty artist or an overall shitty person. Well, except a guy on Derpibooru apparently. (I don’t watch my own tag because I get cold feet looking at the reactions.)

But I do know for a fact that people in the background reeeeally dislike my blogs, my “other” art, and me, and with good reasons.

My story doesn’t make sense, which is very true. PC has had a very rocky start because of me being a less-than-novice writer. Hence the multiple times I “restarted” the dang thing.

And there are so many things I’d love to change. Recently, I came up with the idea that Scootaloo lives in a group home with a sort of foster guardian along with two other orphan-siblings. But I can’t use it because of obvious reasons.

I would’ve loved to talk more about Spettro when he was created, but because he was made up right where I started preparing for the new and current revision, I had to rush and well, I fucked up miserably.

I would love to de-emphasize shipping. It sounds like a paradox coming out of my mouth, but I’m serious. The entire bulk of the current story is revolved around romance and I really wished that I toned it down in Story 1. Because there’s other things like the state of the original Crusaders, family troubles, and Equestrian plights that I want to talk about but can’t until Story 3.

And then there’s other things, like me wishing to bring the main cast back to the three crusaders only (which might happen in Story 3). Or taking a second look at using a “mockumentary” style (which actually is gonna happen in Diaries Take 2). But yeah, you get the picture.

Unfortunately, hanging onto hindsights isn’t gonna help me. I have to work with the choices I’ve made and resist the nasty urge to fuck with it all. Like theblackwidower (a person who’s been with me and PC since the very beginning) said, I should work with my blemishes and not against them. If I’m to improve as a writer, I shouldn’t whine about the could-have-beens because then I strive to create the impossibly perfect blog instead of the more realistic decently entertaining one.

So detractors shall detract. But I shall try to move on, resist the eraser, and just keep writing. And really, I should be happy with what I have and what I’ve done. Even if some duck from Derpibooru or some guy on a forum, or even myself sometimes says otherwise.

And as a conclusion, I wanna thank all the tumblr users, anons, and silent readers for all the support and the kind messages about how post-crusade helped with your depression or made you smile in a bad time. It really means a lot to me that my silly ol’ blog is being entertaining and it’s you guys that help me to keep going. So thank you very much.