You know what I hate?

When I’m able to do all the ridiculous crap you usually do to other people, such as talk about nutty topics or sharing nutty pics,

and then there’s this one guy

this one fucking guy

whom I’m scared of. He/she’s still a great friend and I hang on to him or her like a leech. But when I get to that topic, I enter hermit crab mode and scurry away. And I don’t know why I do that. I can talk about that topic with everyone else just fine! But with this one person, I can’t!

And then their feelings start getting hurt and all I can do is fucking apologize, like that’s gonna fix everything!

I don’t fucking get it. Why am I so nervous around this one person?