Cactus Codex

Pony blogger, actual cactus, artist, writer, computer scientist, and linguist. New Jersey / Pennsylvania | 21 | male, he/him/his | asexual hispanic | Cereus repandus, or Peruvian apple cactus

I hate myself.

Most of the time, I’m fine with that. Loads of people hate me, too. And I have good friends to help me stay stable.

But sometimes, I can’t help it but to just hate myself to the core. I question what I do. What I think. What I say. I yell at myself. I hound other people for answers. Am I good, or bad? Am I a good example, or social trash? Am I worth it?

Then it all blows over. And I patiently wait for the next month so I can hate myself even more again. And again. And again.

  1. shadowdragonprincess said: I really just want to hug you right now ;-;. Hating yourself is never fun, and I know words don’t always help but I’ll hate myself if I don’t say something. You are a good example, you are worth it, and you’re one of my heroes. You rock <3
  2. pvryohei said: It doesn’t matter what you do, some will always hate you, and that alone is more hate than you’ll ever need. It may hard to avoid sometimes, but no one should ever hate itself, Cactus. Just try to remember all the people who love about you, okay?
  3. reluctantnovelist said: I know that feeling. I’m not sure it will help, but I think you’re pretty awesome.
  4. project-sharius said: I know the feeling, and you aren’t trash. I hope there are those who can help you, for this path is pain. You’re a good cactus, and I don’t even know you personally.
  5. samroseiswatchingyou said: I’ll never hate you. You’ll always be one of my best friends.
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